Please keep our boy in your thoughts today💙🐾 Thor is currently having surgery for his bladder stones. Before hubby took him to the vet this morning I hugged my boy and gave him a million kisses. And I cried. Mostly because I’m 7 months pregnant and can’t control my emotions. Because I know he’ll be fine. He has to be, I refuse to believe anything else💕 When they had left I noticed that I had put my clothes on backwards haha, I guess I was nervous. And then I cleaned Thor’s area under the stairs. I want him to come home to a clean bed and vacuumed space. We are hopefully going to pick him up later this afternoon and I want the apartment to be recovery friendly. He might have some accidents here and there and I know from before that if Thor is in any discomfort he like to walk around and find new sleeping spots so I will make sure he is comfortable everywhere in a clean living room.
So this afternoon will be completely dedicated to care for my fur baby. I needs and deserve all the love there is💙💙💙
Hahaha, Thor has so many toys, he’s so spoiled 😀
He likes to switch btw sleeping in his carrier and in his bed, so we have both out for him
This weekend I had a dream that we are having a boy.
In first trimester I was sure of that it’s a girl, but it could maybe be based on that this pregnancy pretty much looked the same as the last one which we know was a girl. But then when I entered second trimester I was convinced that it’s a boy….until the kicks started. For some reason, still, every time baby moves I have a feeling it’s a girl. When baby is still, I think it’s a boy. So, it’s safe to say, I have no clue hahah.
Since I got pregnant I have been “asking” for a sign or a dream that will tell me what gender it is. Still wont know for sure until the birth day of baby of course haha but I want a clearer guess. On Sunday I woke up from dreaming that I was at the hospital, a nurse was holding up what could be my baby (there were plenty of people in that same room including newborn babies) and I saw a penis. So, I think we are having a boy.
I’m already a bit stressed about that we still don’t have a boy name. We have three alternatives now but we are not really into any of them.
And I hope that we are having a girl for the reason that I do not want to make a decision whether or not the baby should be circumcised.
I grew up in a country where boys are not circumcised unless it’s for religious reasons and even then people chose not to. But my husband grew up here, a country where boys are circumcised unless they have immigrant parents or chose not to for religious reasons. The arguments for why a boy should be circumcised is in my mind pure bullshit, there’s no real argument that makes sense. There are plenty of boys/men in this world who survives life without getting this done. The thought of having my boy go through a surgical incision as a newborn is breaking my heart. And he will have nothing to say about this, he has to just live with a decision that we will make for him. That’s not right.
I told my husband when we got pregnant the last time that he has to choose between a boy being circumcised or baby (regardless of gender) being baptized. I don’t want either because I don’t believe it’s up to us, our child should be able to chose for her-/himself. J wants the baby to be baptized in a church which I could have agreed on if it was for religious reasons, but it’s not, it’s out of traditions which to me doesn’t hold up, I don’t want my baby to be baptized unless the baby says she/he wants to be.
Back to the circumcision question. The decision has now more or less been put on me cause it seems like J will choose baby to be baptized. And I don’t know my answer. I don’t want my son to come ask me questions on why he looks different than his father, or wonder why the other boys are pointing and whispering in the locker room (kids are mean shitheads after all) or that he will be rejected by a girl or boy once he’s old enough to be intimate with someone (because again, people are dumb). I did not grow up here as a boy/man, but my husband did. But I know that I will never forgive myself if they have to cut a part of my baby off. Whoever or whatever that created the human body wasn’t planning for boys to get parts removed, that’s just stupid. And what if they screw it up, then I will hate myself forever. But if I say no, maybe the boy will end up hating me for it. When I think of this I start to cry, it hurts too much to think about. But I have to make a decision, time is running out.
So I hope it’s a girl for that reason and problem would be solved:) But, I think it’s a boy.
Hahaha, I love this picture of me and my fluffy boy
For the past three full moons, our child has been extremely active, way more than other days of the month (which are already filled with plenty of big moves). We’re talking 24 hours of nonstop movements the day leading up to full moon (which is tonight at 3am). I have always been very affected by the full moons myself and it seems like our baby is too 🌕
The video above is from 5am this morning. Baby was moving like this for an hour straight. I didn’t care that I wasn’t able to fall back to sleep cause this is just so fascinating to me. I have a tiny little person somersaulting and karate kicking inside me, how cool!
I didn’t want to wake my husband or puppy so I put the flashlight on my phone on and hid under the covers (hence why the video isn’t the greatest) and just stared at my belly💕
The baby has been moving since I got out of bed except for maybe 20 minutes while we had lunch. It’s crazy and I can only imagine how busy we’ll be once baby is out hahah. I have tried to film my belly for months but the bigger movements like above are usually only in the middle of the night when I can’t see it, so I’m happy I got some good footage (or good, I don’t know, it’s from under the covers and I’m lying on my right side).
I showed Jim the video (which is 6 minutes long) when he woke up and he asked me how it feels. It’s really hard to explain, but I said that if I take like the backside of a toothbrush and poke the inside of his mouth so the cheeks would move, then kinda like that but 10x more plus he needs to roll his tongue at the same time. Hahaha, what a weird image.
A couple of years ago we had a neighbor two doors down who had a surprise baby! Ya, you read that right, a surprise baby. She and her soon-to-be husband was at the gym downstairs and suddenly she “peed” her pants. They went back to their apartment where she started to have “stomach pain”. Eventually the pain was so bad that her fiancé took her to the hospital. They found out that she was eight months pregnant and in labor. She had no idea. Jim and I have been thinking about them lately. I just don’t understand how she could not figure it out, did the baby not move? If I didn’t know I was pregnant and suddenly something is moving inside of me, I would freak the heck out hahah. She gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby boy. Shortly after he was born they moved to a house and we haven’t seen them since. I hope they are doing well.
We had a really windy day on our seventh day on the island. Since the bungalow entrance had a ramp at a slight angle it was a bit tough to take Thor out when it was so wet and windy. We spent most of the day inside. J had to work all morning so I spent my time just relaxing doing my own things. Earlier in the morning I did a 25 minute yoga asana practice followed by 20 minutes of pilates. In the afternoon it had stopped raining and wasn’t as windy as the morning, so we drove up north on the island to a dog park. This park turned out to be quiet big. They had a separate area for small dogs but we opened for Thor to be in the big area. There was only one friendly dog there then. Thor had little interest in this dog and just ran around sniffing everything. With all the beautiful trees surrounding this park it made it very peaceful (even if it was right next to traffic), I would love to take T to a park like this every day:) We didn’t stay too long, T tends to get bored easily and walks up to the gate after a little while. So we went for a little walk through a park and ended up on the beach. Quite cold and windy but it was nice. Nobody there really.
We got take-out on our way home and then just spent time relaxing on the couch all night.
Jim found this disgusting looking thing (the orange ones and the white mushroom balls) outside our bungalow. We found out it is called clathrus columnatus, it’s a fungus, look it up
In the morning of our eight day I went for a walk by myself to get us coffee at the cafe nearby. And then I spent time by myself again reading a baby book while J was working even though he was only supposed to work for two days during our trip. Eventually I got bored and tired of him sitting by the computer all day, so I went for a long walk by myself. I decided to walk over to the horses, took about 45 minutes. There was no horses in that patio though when I got here. I texted J that he and buttface could come meet me there which they did. Together we drove to the beach for a walk in the sun. We walked pretty far and we ended up at the end of the island. The beach is 12 miles long and we explored different parts of it every time we went.
For dinner we had calzones from the pizza place that we liked and then we sat outside in the cold to watch an absolutely gorgeous sunset.
This is how cute all the streets on this island was
We saw lots and lots of dead stingrays washed up on the beach
Jim took Thor to the vet this morning for new x-rays, I stayed at home cause it’s just easier for T in the car. We didn’t get the greatest news. He had x-rays done before Christmas and it seemed promising but now I guess it hasn’t changed or has even got worse. So he needs surgery after all:( There were apparently some larger stones in his bladder now J said so we want to do this surgery soon so we don’t have to go to in for an emergency (plus he has been dealing with this for almost a year now). He’s scheduled for March 3rd. My poor baby, my heart is broken. But these operations are not uncommon on dogs so I know he’ll be fine, but of course it’s still scary, he’s so little. Another sad news was that he has to continue with his current diet for the rest of his life and he hates this food plus he doesn’t get any treats. I feel so bad for him. Everywhere we read about how to prepare your dog for a baby it says to lessen the snuggles and attention because there will automatically be less of it from when baby arrives, but right now I just want to smother him with cuddles and kisses. He deserves all the love there is♥
Hahaha, Thor has so many toys, he’s so spoiled 😀
