June 20, 2019
Hi! Hope you are having an awesome week with hopefully better weather than what we are having. It’s just raining and raining. So boring.
Ok, I’m gonna go right into it. My doctor called me yesterday with the results of my blood test from Tuesday. It went up
She said again that they have found absolutely nothing abnormal in my body so at this point it’s just one big mystery. She asked me if I have a hamster or bunny or been near other farm animals, cause she thinks there might be some weird antibodies floating around in my body and that can apparently affect the results. So right now I’m just waiting for her to call today again and tell me where I can go and give a urine sample and they can see if that shows anything different. Aaahh, this is so frustrating! What the F is wrong with my body, why am I not back to 0??
I have been trying to keep a smile on my face, tried to be optimistic and stay positive through this, but I still cry almost every day. I feel very frustrated and of course a bit confused. I hate that I have no control over this. I just want to be done now.
On my way into Manhattan as I’m writing now, going to see a friend of mine. If the doctor calls I have to ask her if I can go in tomorrow for my test cause I don’t feel like rushing back (all places close at 5), I want to enjoy my time with her. Keeping busy by doing a bunch of stuff and by spending time with my husband and my friends has been the greatest distraction to not have to constantly think about this shit. It’s getting old now, I’m tired of it, this story is boring now.