December 23, 2019

 

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Hi! Yes, I am alive:) Sometimes the blog has to suffer a little. This month has been a bit tough. I hate to dwell on things, but it just became so real that I’m not done with the PMP story yet and it’s been over a year now since it started (we didn’t know about it until later, but the story began already in November of last year). I was so excited about the little life I was carrying and we were hoping that last Christmas was going to be our last just the two of us, but it didn’t work out. And now for some reason I got really emotional about it and it’s hard to update this site then. 

Anyway. Hubby brought puppy to work today so I’m having a day to myself. A perfect time for me to sit down and think about how I’d like 2020 to look like. My pmp story will unfortunately follow me into the next year but at least my numbers has continued to be down so I’m not as worried anymore.
However, we have put in a maintenance request (possible mold growing in the wall and under carpet by the terrace door) so I don’t feel as relaxed and tuned out as I’d like to. I asked Jim to bring Thor to work so that I really didn’t have to focus on anything else, but knowing that the guy might show up any second makes it kinda hard to sit down and meditate or to stay focused on anything which was the purpose of this day. It’s hard for me to concentrate on a normal day so I needed a full day to just myself. Oh well.. I got do some yoga in the morning and have got some stuff done on my computer now so I guess it’s not a total waste:) 

Ok, this post wasn’t very positive I guess hahah, but I’m gonna go sit down and meditate now to bring negative thoughts out of my system (I bet you $5 that the guy will show up a minute into it hahah).
Have a wonderful day! 

xmas card made by: me 😀

December 2, 2019

Hello December! I’m still confused, where did this year go? It feels like I just took the tree down and now it’s back up again. Huh? 

We went to see our friends on Friday which was very nice, George is 4 months old now and too cute, my cheeks hurt from all the laughing and smiling with him and at him:) On Saturday I cleaned our apartment, did loads of laundry and prepped for the winter season. Yesterday I finished cleaning and then put all the Christmas stuff up. Last year I kinda went all-in with all the decorations, maybe because I was pregnant and overly excited about absolutely everything haha. This year I went with a very minimal decoration. The xmas tree got about 1/3 of the ornaments, I put the garland on the stairs but no lights, placed two sets of mini decor Santa families in the main room (because they mean a lot to me and reminds me of my childhood) and then I put Christmas towels in the kitchen, that’s it. I have boxes of stuff that I haven’t touched, I just don’t feel like it this year. I thought last year would be our last cold winter since we were going to have a baby and were looking to move, but now we have yet another year of frozen fingers and too many layers of clothes. So  I guess in protest to the cold weather I’m not putting stuff up hahah.
I’m sure I will get more of a Christmas feeling the closer we get to the end of the year, that’s usually how it is. Still not gonna put more stuff up though, my number one sentence these days is “there’s too much clutter here” hahaha, so I keep getting rid of stuff. J kept asking me if I wanted anything during Black Friday, but nope, no more stuff please:)

The living space in this apartment is so weird, It drives me crazy every single day, especially when we have to put the xmas tree up. We tried probably 50 different placements of the couch and the tree yesterday before we decided to do exactly what we did last year, which I didn’t like then, but whatever, it’s only for 4 weeks anyway
Oh ya, I also created some festive candles yesterday. I like some DIY’s every year:)