prepared just in case

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February 26, 2020

Good Morning friends! Yesterday the news kept talking about that the Coronavirus now has reached USA. I am not scared of the virus itself really, if we get it then we’re probably gonna be fine, just be sick for two weeks or something, but it’s the spreading that makes me a little nervous. We live right by NYC where lots of our neighbors work, where lots of people fly in and out, where people from all over world live, a city that is very dirty especially the subways. And to be honest, I don’t trust other people. I see people sneezing and coughing out in the open all the time and I’m sure not everyone wash their hands as often as they should (this is part why I’m a bit germophobic). I heard that in Sweden you don’t have to be quarantined if you don’t want to, it’s voluntarily. What? (However, I just read online that they might add a new law regarding the coronavirus). I really hope that people take their responsibilities and isolate themselves or get quarantined if it’s really bad. To get the virus myself, no, I’m not afraid, but I’m thinking of the old people, the babies and those who are already sick, we have to be careful for their sake. I have lots of people I care about, like my nephew and my niece.

Gaahh, this post sounds so dramatic, hahah. That’s not my intention. It sounds like I’m freaking out about this, I’m not, just trying to think ahead. 

But, Jim and I decided yesterday that it would be a good idea to stock up on some food that can last for a long time “just in case” we would get it or if people around us would start getting it and we would have to isolate ourselves. Absolute worst case we would probably rent a cabin in the woods far away from everyone and stay there til coast is clear:) It’s better to think ahead and be prepared than be sorry later. 

I feel bit conflicted though. I want to take classes and planned on going to Manhattan to dance, but if there’s any environment that loves spreading stuff it’s dance studios along with schools, gyms and other fitness studios. Virus paradise haha. The thought of taking the train, subway and then sweat and breathe close to other dancers kinda gross me out. I know I’m being silly, but again, you can never be too careful 😀 What would you do?

This wasn’t all that we bought. We bought extra of some of the items shown and also bought some refill hand soap, dog wipes and other more boring stuff that didn’t need to be in the picture:) The grocery store was also quite empty yesterday, not a lot of fruit or veggies of ok quality, they didn’t have my coconut yogurt for example and lots of shelves had old products. But we went to the grocery store and bought lots of stuff a week ago as well, things like potatoes and coffee, so now our small fridge, freezer and cabinets are completely full. Lots of canned food, nuts, soup, pasta and I have huge containers of oats and chia seeds, so if the world would go under, we can survive for a really long time hahha.  

Video: House Hunting in Jacksonville

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Video from our trip to Jacksonville, Florida.
I would have liked to show you more, but I couldn’t film too much of the houses or the communities because that kinda felt awkward, but you’ll see a little at least of what we were up to 🙂 

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Have an Awesome day!

miniature doberman?

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February 24, 2020

Good Morning! How are you today? We have suddenly got really nice and a bit warmer weather. So lovely in the sun! We’ll see how long it lasts:)
This weekend we took Thor to a new place for a haircut. I don’t think we will go back there. I told her to leave at least an inch of his fluff but he ended up almost completely shaved, even the face plus she cut his whiskers off 🙁 Poor thing, he looks so weird. I mean, he still looks cute, but he definitely doesn’t look like himself. He looks like a miniature doberman and when I put a sweater on him he looks like a chihuahua. Oh well…it’ll grow back in no time. Now he’s ready for spring.
While we waited for Thor to be done we went to a diner for breakfast. Barely came home before we had to go pick T up again (normally it takes a few hours but now he was done in two). Lock City Brewery is just down the street from that groomer so we decided to take T there for a drink before going home.
In the evening we spontaneously took a taxi to the same area we had breakfast to try a place that was across the street from the diner, Riko’s Pizza. Thin crust and tasted just like the Colony Pizza that we’ve been to a few times. I would definitely recommend that, there’s a few places around here.
On Sunday we didn’t do much. I cleaned the apartment, did some laundry and put fresh sheets in the bed. We took Thor for a warm sunny walk, ate a McDonalds lunch, we played computer games and at night we watched an episode of Shameless. Btw, I finished watching the Handmaid’s Tale this weekend, have any of you seen it, what do you think? That show gave me some weird dreams over the past few weeks and the story definitely had me thinking, especially because of everything that is happening around us these days.
Anyway, we had a nice weekend. Thor looks weird but he’ll survive:)

BEFORE   –   AFTER

Random snaps from Jax

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February 23, 2020

At our hotel We saw many interesting houses along the coast
Castillo de San MarcosCalamari, fried avocado and tuna tostada
Morning meeting Warm mini donuts, Jim got an ice coffee and I got a cappuccino 
From left: 1) espresso 2) sea salt caramel popcorn 3) coffee cake 4) maple bacon
We ended up going to the airport quite early,
so it was nice that there was a sky lounge open where we could enjoy unlimited food and drinks:)

NYC at night seen from the plane, always a beautiful sight 

365 DAYS

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February 19, 2020

365 days ago, I heard of partial molar pregnancy for the first time. My doctor didn’t tell us much, just explained to us that the baby had three sets of chromosomes which is called triploidy and that I needed to do blood tests until my hcg level is down to 0. I did my first test that day and the number showed 263 which is a very very low number to start with 3 weeks post pregnancy. Everyone was kinda expecting me to be done within two months. 
10 months of weekly blood tests and 3 monthly, I’m still not cleared. 52 weeks of hope to be able to move on and put this behind me. Earlier this month I did what I really thought would be my last test, cause my doctor had told me in November that I only needed three more months. She called and told me the result (I’m still down) and then told me that I have to do another test in May. That hurt. I was at the gym when she called. After the phone call ended I continued with what I had been doing but five minutes later the tears came. I sat down facing the wall pretending to stretch cause in case someone would walk into the gym they wouldn’t be able to see that I was crying. It took 25 minutes before my face was dry enough to go home. My dog came to meet me and probably sensed that something was wrong. He snuggled me the way he always does and I completely crashed.
It doesn’t matter if it’s next week, next month, in three months or next year, knowing that I have a test coming up is always on the back of my mind and it’s exhausting. It’s hard to deal with knowing that I’m still an active patient at the oncology office and knowing that even if I feel healthy my papers says I’m not. I know that I am healthy, I am ok, but to not be cleared is emotionally tough to handle. I feel trapped in my own body which is a very strange feeling. Most days I feel great but some days a simple thing like taking Thor out for a walk feels like climbing Everest. Sometimes I wish there was an off switch for the brain.
I could probably just say f*ck it and not do my test in May, but I’m also a little scared and I do trust my doctors plus I want to be a good patient.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe I haven’t found or learned what I’m supposed to yet. 

If you or someone you know are going through something like this, feel free to send me a message. I won’t have all the answers, but I will be here for support.
I am not alone and neither are you♥



It’s actually quite hard for me to share my story, it’s hard to show myself this vulnerable. But this past year I have noticed that my story might be of help to others. I had never heard of partial molar pregnancy before and I have still never heard of a mystery case like mine. Google can give you the same info that your doctor tells you, but everything else I have learned about this comes from writing with other women from all over the world. It’s amazing how much support is out there when you need it. I am forever grateful. We are all sitting in the same boat, noone has real answers, we all only have suggestions but most of all we feel compassion and love for those who are going through similar things. Every story is unique and we all suffer through it differently, but we are still women (and partners of women) who has to deal with something that is very hard.