January 7, 2021

My biggest hope is of course to have a healthy baby and I hope that if I do my very best I will be a good mother to our “Lilliput”💗
I also hope that Thor has a better year than the last. He had a ruff 2020 with way too many issues and vet visits. We want a happy healthy puppy this year.
My biggest dream of the year I guess is that the pup and the baby will become friends.
Still dreaming of getting a forever home somewhere warmer.
Overall for 2021, I’d like to stay calm with a positive mind, make sure I have time for my daily practices and get as much snuggle time as possible with the three loves of my life🥰

January 6, 2020

2020 was a challenging year for us all. For my husband and myself it mostly just meant that we can’t go out to eat or travel like before, but staying at home hasn’t been too hard for us, we love being home and being just the two of us.

But it was a ruff year for Thor. Poor thing, he went through so much. In February we took him to a new groomer who misunderstood us and he ended up more or less shaved. Pomeranians are not supposed to have short haircuts like that, it ruins their undercoat and Thor lost his black hair color (slowly coming back now). In the beginning of April, he got bladder stones. Luckily he didn’t need surgery, just needed to put him on special food. That first kind of food didn’t have enough nutrients so after a few months we had to change to different brand that does the same thing but has more vitamins. He absolutely loved the first kind of food, but he absolutely hates the new one. We have been struggling for a few months now to get him to eat. Nowadays we sit on the floor and hand feed him in order to get him excited to eat every day (ya, it’s crazy). Right after he got the bladder stones, he got really bad ear infections. I’m the only one who can see that there is a thick piece of hair stuck in his left ear which I know caused him to scratch which then caused him to get infections. The hair is still there but doesn’t bother him now and the infection was cleared after we used eardrops for a couple of weeks. At one point T didn’t want to eat and had no energy all day. Eventually he puked and pooped blood. The vet told us they found a tiny piece of metal in his tummy on the xrays but nothing to be concerned about. He needed medication orally through a syringe for a week (which was a real struggle for us all).
In the end of November we took him in to get new xrays and to schedule his surgery that we had decided to go along with. His bladder looked better and he doesn’t need surgery after all, yay! We have to take him for new xrays soon again and hopefully the stones are gone by then. 

2020 started with my husband and myself making a decision to lock in the whole baby thing in a closet and close the door indefinitely, maybe never even open it again. I planned on going back to dance, but ya, there isn’t any this year. In March, I told my husband that regardless of when I get cleared from the partial molar pregnancy, I absolutely do not want to be pregnant during a pandemic, in my opinion it’s stupid. But then I got cleared from my PMP in the end of June (thought it would be in November), we found a house that we flew to look at in July and was told that we could possibly buy it in the end of summer (and we then planned on moving in next summer but maybe spend the winter there). So, we decided to try for a baby in August after all for the reasons that we have awesome insurance at the moment, I like my doctors in New York and we love the hospital plus if something shitty would happen again then NY/CT probably has the best specialists in the country. We got pregnant on the first try. But the whole house process turned into a shitshow and seemed complicated so we kinda gave up. We also thought I miscarried twice during the first trimester (more about that in a different post). And then the corona situation got worse again. So I can’t say I was thrilled to be pregnant in the beginning. 
The guy who built the house has been updating us over the months and we’ve been keeping an eye on it as well, and we’ll know for real very soon if we have a chance to get this house or not. Baby Sura is doing great as far as we know♥

To sum up 2020, yes, it has been challenging. Thor struggled the most probably. He has no real routines anymore, he hates his food, I think he’s sad about that he can’t say hi to all the strangers outside and he doesn’t understand why we keep our distance to others. So I really hope 2021 will be a way better year for him (but we’ll see how he likes being a big brother haha). And Jim and I still love each other, we still love and like to hang out every day, hahah. Now we are ready for 2021 and the challenges we will have this year. 

Thor was super cute in his short haircut though I’m so happy that I got to meet my niece Mila in January before the pandemic
We traveled to Jacksonville right before we began our lives at homeI colored my hair pink in 2020
We’ve been hiking
My last blood test for my PMP!
We drove to Manhattan and had a wonderful day!When I was 19w4d