March 5, 2020
Good Morning! How are you doing these days? Crazy world we live in right now, huh? I hope you are safe and healthy!
As you know, we have been isolating ourselves as much as possible for a few weeks now. I kinda like it, but it is also important to us to get outside and get some fresh air and especially getting some energy out. Yesterday after our morning coffees we took Thor to Bartlett Arboretum park (been there many times before). It’s a smaller park but still fun for at least T to explore. We had a fun time, even let him off leash on the soccer field next to the forest and he seemed to really enjoy it. On our way home we decided to stop and pick up some food. We came home and only few second later T peed on the rug in the living room. Not only was it strange that he peed inside especially after he had been peeing all over the forest, but I also notices that it was blood coming out in the end of the stream. Oh shit! Jim called the vet immediately and they told us we could come in 45 minutes later. We ate our food and then we had to leave.
Our first thought was that it could be uti, and that’s what the vet said too. But, apparently it isn’t rare that pomeranians get stones, so they checked with ultrasounds, then took three x-ray pictures and then I guess they somehow got a urine sample, they kept him for a long time. J and I just stood in the tiny little examination room waiting and waiting. I felt unusually calm, just like I always stayed calm and away from worry when sitting in waiting rooms for this and that last year. Maybe it’s because I know there’s nothing I can do and that I shouldn’t worry until I know the answers.
Anyway. After an eternity the vet came and told us to come look at the pictures. Poor thing has many many little stones in his bladder. They are pretty small which is good but unfortunately many. // We also found out looking at his pictures that his right hip isn’t perfect so now we are going to be extra careful so we don’t need to deal with a disaster of that later, I blame the slippery floors in our apartment. // Depending on the pH in his urine, he might need surgery. There is a chance that we could go straight to changing his diet and these stones can go away, but it seems more likely that he needs surgery and then change the diet, but we don’t know until the results come back Monday.
Surgery on such a small dog is of course scary to think about. My little baby ♥ But they do these kind of surgeries all the time so I’m trying to not think of worst case scenario. But oh so expensive. Our vet gave us a number that seemed waaayy to high for what we have found from searching online and talking to other vets so we’ll see where we end up for that. I hope he doesn’t need it. Please keep him in your thoughts today and especially tomorrow. We have noticed a little bit red urine which is expected and he has a rash that we think he somehow got at the vet (I’m not happy about that!), but he’s not in any pain or anything which is good and he eats/drink like normal.
The new diet that can help prevent him from getting stones isn’t exactly good for his potential pancreatitis problem. He has a special diet now with very low fat and the new diet we would have to put him on has a higher amount of fat so I’m not sure how we are going to deal with this, but that is a later problem, we don’t know anything yet so I’m not gonna worry for now. Today we will focus on giving Thor a million extra kisses and snuggle him whenever we can. In an hour we’re gonna take him for a long walk to the park and then just have fun all day, maybe give him his extra yummy treats:)
Last year I had two surgeries where they had to scrape out shit that was making me sick and now Thor might need a surgery like that as well. One thing after another. No matter how positive you keep your thoughts, how much good energy you send out in the world and how nice you are to others, you can never predict when something will happen to someone. There are many things we can plan for and control in our lives, but there are things we have no power over. My PMP was a rare and completely random chromosomal shitshow that I had no control over, and Thor’s stones isn’t something we had anything to do with, they appeared and now we need to help him get rid of them. The only thing we have control over is how we deal with bad news or bad situations. We can chose to freak out or we can choose to stay calm and keep thinking positive thoughts. If he needs surgery, then we will be here for him and help him to a safe recovery. My heart hurts, I wish nothing bad would ever happen to my little baby, but it is what it is and all I can do is to care and show him love ♥
May 14, 2019, I went in for my first treatment. One year later, I’m still not cleared. My blood test last Saturday showed a different number than the previous few, still a good number but because it looked different my oncologist wants me to go in next month again. At this point I barely even care anymore, as long as I feel healthy and my number is down, what’s another test or two or five.. There are other concerns in the world right now. Fingers crossed I’ll be cleared next month though.
