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Babymoon Day 9

Author Fanny SuraPosted on 1 Comment

March 9, 2021

Feels like forever ago that we were on our babymoon. But I have a few more days to add to the series:)

On the 9th day, February 3rd, we got up earlier and drove to the Sea Pines Park. On our last walk there (day 6) we drove into the park from a different entrance and that path was so beautiful that I decided that I wanted to take the maternity photos with the black lace robe (see my post from Monday) there but of course I didn’t want an audience so we got there early. I love how the photos turned out! And then we drove further in and took some more photos by the lake. We had to be quick though cause for some reason the park was full of workers and park rangers that morning and I wasn’t exactly wearing clothes. 
After taking some photos, I got dressed in the car and we went for a walk on the path that I had fallen in love with. Such a peaceful path. We didn’t stay long cause we were hungry. We went to pick up food at that golf restaurant again (that’s when J told me it was $40 for two waffles and two coffees which is insane). 
After breakfast, we drove to the beach for a walk. A bit warmer and lovely weather. On the walk back, the baby must have positioned itself somewhere that affected my walking. I struggled a bit and had to take my time. But once baby moved a tiny bit I was like myself again. Weird how that is.
Back at the house we decided to sit outside and enjoy the sun for awhile until it was time to cook pasta for dinner. Since the weather was so nice we decided to go for an evening walk. J had told me that the neighborhood that we stayed in was way bigger than you would think so we wanted to go check it out. There are like 75 of these cute bungalows there, all surrounded by palm trees and at the end of one dead end we found a pathway along a big pond. We saw a whole family of deer and had to be careful not to scare them. This path was so cute, I wish we had found it earlier on our trip (and that the weather would have allowed us to enjoy it). 

I don’t like golf, but if I would ever try I’d like it to be at a place like this.
Fun fact; in 2010, I was a caddie at a celebrity golf thing that was broadcast on TV in Sweden
Thor’s pawprints in the sandThis giraffe crab was not much bigger than a guitar pick, so cute  Thor made friends Jimmy enjoyed our vacation At night, we watched a movie on Netflix
(yes, I took this photo because it was a cute moment 🙂 )

In Brain Dump, Pregnancy

Woman

Author Fanny SuraPosted on Leave a comment

March 8, 2021

I love being a woman, I love my body and the incredible things it has to go through in life, I love the women I have around me that supports me, I love the fantastic women who helped in making changes for us women now, I love myself and every woman on this planet.

To become a parent or to carry my own child has never been obvious to me. I could easily see a future of just me and my husband (and lots of fluffy Thor’s hahah). But here I am, 8 months of transformation waiting for a little one. And this pregnancy journey has been interesting. Nothing of surprise really, but I’ve always been fascinated by the what our bodies can do, that’s one reason for why I became a dance teacher. As women we have a lot of changes happening throughout our lives whether we like it or not. We are born with all the eggs we’ll ever have, we have to bleed year after year, suffer through pms, some women will carry babies and others can’t or don’t want to, we deal with hormones and unexplained emotions and eventually we go through a major change called menopause. And on top of that we have to deal with all the expectations put on us because of that we are women and then we add all the other stuff to the list that men deals with as well. Some women work, others don’t, some women takes care of babies others deals with employees. Women put in a lot of hard work and often don’t get what they deserve in return. But we keep going. Always.

I know nothing about this tiny human inside me (other than it likes to dance all day long just like its mommy), but I know that the more my husband and I can teach her/him about the world the better off she/he is to become someone who will respect others, support others and show love and compassion to others. And that’s all we want. I believe in a bright future for women and men and it starts with us and our little ones. 

Happy International Women’s Day! Lets send a message to the women we care about today and pat ourselves on the shoulder and say “you’re awesome”. Cause women are pretty f*cking awesome!

I am proud of who I am and I love my body

In Pregnancy

circumcision or not

Author Fanny SuraPosted on Leave a comment

March 1, 2021

This weekend I had a dream that we are having a boy. 

In first trimester I was sure of that it’s a girl, but it could maybe be based on that this pregnancy pretty much looked the same as the last one which we know was a girl. But then when I entered second trimester I was convinced that it’s a boy….until the kicks started. For some reason, still, every time baby moves I have a feeling it’s a girl. When baby is still, I think it’s a boy. So, it’s safe to say, I have no clue hahah.
Since I got pregnant I have been “asking” for a sign or a dream that will tell me what gender it is. Still wont know for sure until the birth day of baby of course haha but I want a clearer guess. On Sunday I woke up from dreaming that I was at the hospital, a nurse was holding up what could be my baby (there were plenty of people in that same room including newborn babies) and I saw a penis. So, I think we are having a boy. 

I’m already a bit stressed about that we still don’t have a boy name. We have three alternatives now but we are not really into any of them.
And I hope that we are having a girl for the reason that I do not want to make a decision whether or not the baby should be circumcised.

I grew up in a country where boys are not circumcised unless it’s for religious reasons and even then people chose not to. But my husband grew up here, a country where boys are circumcised unless they have immigrant parents or chose not to for religious reasons. The arguments for why a boy should be circumcised is in my mind pure bullshit, there’s no real argument that makes sense. There are plenty of boys/men in this world who survives life without getting this done. The thought of having my boy go through a surgical incision as a newborn is breaking my heart. And he will have nothing to say about this, he has to just live with a decision that we will make for him. That’s not right.

I told my husband when we got pregnant the last time that he has to choose between a boy being circumcised or baby (regardless of gender) being baptized. I don’t want either because I don’t believe it’s up to us, our child should be able to chose for her-/himself. J wants the baby to be baptized in a church which I could have agreed on if it was for religious reasons, but it’s not, it’s out of traditions which to me doesn’t hold up, I don’t want my baby to be baptized unless the baby says she/he wants to be.

Back to the circumcision question. The decision has now more or less been put on me cause it seems like J will choose baby to be baptized. And I don’t know my answer. I don’t want my son to come ask me questions on why he looks different than his father, or wonder why the other boys are pointing and whispering in the locker room (kids are mean shitheads after all) or that he will be rejected by a girl or boy once he’s old enough to be intimate with someone (because again, people are dumb). I did not grow up here as a boy/man, but my husband did. But I know that I will never forgive myself if they have to cut a part of my baby off. Whoever or whatever that created the human body wasn’t planning for boys to get parts removed, that’s just stupid. And what if they screw it up, then I will hate myself forever. But if I say no, maybe the boy will end up hating me for it. When I think of this I start to cry, it hurts too much to think about. But I have to make a decision, time is running out. 

So I hope it’s a girl for that reason and problem would be solved:) But, I think it’s a boy. 

Hahaha, I love this picture of me and my fluffy boy

In Pregnancy

Moon child

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February 26, 2021

For the past three full moons, our child has been extremely active, way more than other days of the month (which are already filled with plenty of big moves). We’re talking 24 hours of nonstop movements the day leading up to full moon (which is tonight at 3am). I have always been very affected by the full moons myself and it seems like our baby is too 🌕
The video above is from 5am this morning. Baby was moving like this for an hour straight. I didn’t care that I wasn’t able to fall back to sleep cause this is just so fascinating to me. I have a tiny little person somersaulting and karate kicking inside me, how cool!
I didn’t want to wake my husband or puppy so I put the flashlight on my phone on and hid under the covers (hence why the video isn’t the greatest) and just stared at my belly💕
The baby has been moving since I got out of bed except for maybe 20 minutes while we had lunch. It’s crazy and I can only imagine how busy we’ll be once baby is out hahah. I have tried to film my belly for months but the bigger movements like above are usually only in the middle of the night when I can’t see it, so I’m happy I got some good footage (or good, I don’t know, it’s from under the covers and I’m lying on my right side).
I showed Jim the video (which is 6 minutes long) when he woke up and he asked me how it feels. It’s really hard to explain, but I said that if I take like the backside of a toothbrush and poke the inside of his mouth so the cheeks would move, then kinda like that but 10x more plus he needs to roll his tongue at the same time. Hahaha, what a weird image.

A couple of years ago we had a neighbor two doors down who had a surprise baby! Ya, you read that right, a surprise baby. She and her soon-to-be husband was at the gym downstairs and suddenly she “peed” her pants. They went back to their apartment where she started to have “stomach pain”. Eventually the pain was so bad that her fiancé took her to the hospital. They found out that she was eight months pregnant and in labor. She had no idea. Jim and I have been thinking about them lately. I just don’t understand how she could not figure it out, did the baby not move? If I didn’t know I was pregnant and suddenly something is moving inside of me, I would freak the heck out hahah. She gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby boy. Shortly after he was born they moved to a house and we haven’t seen them since. I hope they are doing well.