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June 1, 2021

When you’re Swedish living in America, you get to celebrate Mother’s day twice a year.
It was Mors Dag (mother’s day) in Sweden on Sunday.

One of my goals for this long Memorial Day weekend was to start my computer and update here. I didn’t get a chance to do that. Whenever I had a few minutes over I prioritized other things, like, enjoying my cup of coffee or eating a slice of pizza or snuggle Thor. I don’t have many daily goals these days other than keeping our babies alive:) One thing on my list this weekend was to shower my hair and I got to do that (yay!), another was to fold laundry which I did maybe a third of the current pile that will multiply today. Right now I’m trying to eat breakfast and update here as fast as I possibly can before I have to feed again – I can do stuff on my laptop while she eats but it’s quite difficult plus I want to keep my focus on her.
(well,…it took me 9 hours and 45 minutes from when I started to write this post til I’m ready to publish it hahah. I have been pretty busy today AND been stuck nursing for extra long sessions)

So, what has happened since last time I updated?

My original plan was to wait to get vaccinated until after I’m done breastfeeding, so, sometime at the end of the year. But after reading about that babies get antibodies through vaccinated mothers milk and after talking to other moms whos got it already, I decided that the right decision for me and our daughter is to get the vaccine now. Since I have to fly with Lily in July (regardless of where we move) I want us to be as protected as possible.
On Friday, as I was feeding Lily lunch, I signed up to get myself a first vaccine shot… 40 minutes later. You don’t actually have to sign up, they allow drive-ins, but it’s easier to fill out your personal info online than having to do it in the car at the sight. When we were all dressed, we drove over to the sight (five min away). It’s like three huge parking lots, all empty (cause nobody is getting their shots now – they either already got them or they don’t want to get them). I sat in the backseat with Lily, rolled down the window, got my shot in my left arm and then had to sit in the car for 20 minutes on a different part of the parking to make sure I felt fine before we could leave. Lily didn’t enjoy a stopped car but fell asleep as soon as we moved.
So now I got my first vaccine shot and I’m happy with my decision. I have to go back in three weeks for my second one and then we should be good to fly down south:) And how did I feel after the shot? In the middle of the night when I was feeding L my arm felt a little sore but it was gone by the time we got out of bed in the morning, so not bad at all. Some say they got sick after the second though so I have to pick a good day for that. 

It has mostly just been raining this weekend so we have been enjoying our baby bubble inside. Lily sleeps, eats, has her poop explosions, plays at the gym, reads books, listens to mamma singing old Swedish kids songs (that I have now realized have pretty terrible lyrics) and starting to smile in response to what we are doing. She is still a dream. She’s so sweet, very funny with all her weird noises and different facial expressions and I can see that there is a little character with her own personality coming out more and more.
On Sunday, I really wanted us to have some fresh air but didn’t feel like taking the stroller out in the pouring rain, so I put her in the carrier that we were gifted and all four of us went for a walk up and down the covered parking lot of our building.

Lily after a sponge bath, just too cute♥ She still has a tiny bit of the umbilical cord left so we haven’t given her a real bath yet but she is def due for one

Yesterday, Monday, it finally stopped raining and the sun even came out for a bit. We’ve had some colder temperatures out now which I honestly don’t mind at the moment, Lily needs to gradually get used to hotter weather. Anyway, after lunch, we went for a longer walk to the “cute street”. It’s so wonderfully green over there now. I don’t think I have walked over there since maybe Christmas. It’s not far from us but the bigger my belly got the less away from our home I wanted to walk.

Today, even if I had what felt like a million things to do, I took both babies out for a walk by myself while Jim went to the bank. It wasn’t that easy though cause Mr Daddy’s Boy didn’t really want to walk anywhere, I kept dragging him around behind me. I should be used to that by now though cause it has been like this since the pandemic started.

the witching hour

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May 27, 2021

Every day looks the same in our bubble. It has been hard to remember what day of the week it is for a year now, you can only separate weekends from weekdays. But now, I have no clue what day it is. It could be a Saturday or a Tuesday, it’s all the same. Sure, hubby has phone work meetings from time to time that tells me it’s a weekday, but other than that, no idea:) And this weekend is a three day weekend so I’m gonna be completely thrown off hahah. 

Every night this week, Lilliput has been fussy for about an hour around 7-ish. Babies her age is “supposed to” sleep for 16-20 hours/day, but Lily sleeps an average of 12 hours/day which she seems pretty ok with and then she sleeps through the night. But she does have a fussy hour because she is overtired. Crying and crying and crying, and if I happen to be a bit extra tired then I allow myself to cry a little too. This is apparently called the witching hour, something most babies goes through, says google. It can be because of overstimulation during the day, overtiredness, gas, upset tummy, busy background from the rest of the family etc. It starts around week 2-3 and lasts til about month 3-4 (yay). She’s got a few longer naps in today so I’m hoping for a much more relaxed evening. We are also not watching anything on TV tonight and have no extreme noises overall. And the air conditioner kinda works as white noise which is good, it keeps her asleep.
(( it was also full moon yesterday, so maybe that’s what made her fussy all week, who knows 🙂 ))
We haven’t started with any specific schedules or routines yet, we still just go by what she needs and want. Her umbilical cord came off awhile ago but there’s a tiny stump piece left which for some weird reason was bleeding this morning, so we can’t give her any real baths yet, which is something to add to a regular schedule in the future. For now, we just go with the flow, and we are all happy with that 😀 

This week we have been trying to put her in the BabyBjorn bouncer for short periods of time.
She is starting to enjoy it I think. 

 

easy peasy lemon squeezy

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May 24, 2021

Two weeks since we came home from the hospital. How is it two weeks already?? Where did time go, what have we done?
In a weird way I feel that I have met Lily before, being with her feels so familiar in a way. And life with a baby feels strangely familiar as well. I have no clue how to take care of a baby but somehow we manage to keep her alive hahaha. 

How are our babies doing? Thor is still not really convinced that Lily is a keeper, but he also seems to be a bit protective of her. He is curious about her and has come closer to her, even given her a kiss on her hand, but for the most part he keep his distance. And Lily is getting chubbier every day which is great of course, that means she is eating well. She has now also started to poop like a normal baby. The first 1.5 week we got maybe two poops from her. Since Saturday we have got plenty of explosions. Jim and I just kept laughing and laughing after the first one on Saturday arrived. She doesn’t give us any warning, and she has the calmest facial expression right before and during hahaha. 

I’m going to jinx it now, but so far, having a baby is pretty easy. Sure, I’ve had some tougher moments here and there, but overall it has been way easier than I expected and Lily is just the dream. Last night she slept for 7 (!!) hours, she ate for like 15 min and then back to sleep for 3 more hours and then slept some more after the breakfast feeding… which probably wasn’t great since she hasn’t slept really after that and was screaming for like an hour from being overtired until about an hour ago (it’s 6pm now). But, hopefully this was just today. So overall, everything is great and I am grateful for all the peaceful moments we’ve got so far. 

I haven’t got on my yoga mat since before she was born cause my body hasn’t been ready for asana practice. I haven’t sat down to meditate either really. My checkup is 6 weeks postpartum and I really hope I can go back to dance, yoga, pilates or whatever else I feel like doing after that. 
I have however taken every chance I get to focus on breathing, given myself a moment to check in with myself. Whether it’s during my walk in the park with my girl in the stroller, while she is eating or while I’m trying to do business in the bathroom (oh the beauty of child birth🤪). It’s not the daily practice I’m used to but for now I’m happy with this. And when time is right I’ll roll out my mat.

In deep thoughts…most likely about poopingIt was 90°f (32°c) outside yesterday so I couldn’t take Lily out in the stroller. Instead I took her to the terrace… for abut 4 minutes and then it was too hot for her and Thor and we went inside for a couch party
Today it was colder outside so we could go for a walk

Two week checkup

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May 20, 2021

Yesterday; Family walk in the park, 27°c outside!
Taking pictures of newborns is not the easiest, but every angle of Lily is cute:)

Hello from the Lily bubble. There is so much to say and yet nothing haha. We are obviously only spending time at home and we don’t do anything other than taking care of our little angel. So, we are busy but are also not really doing anything:)

Lily had her two week checkup appointment with the pediatrician this morning. It’s located across the street from our apartment so it’s very easy for us to get to and we don’t have to interact with anyone else.
She’s had three appointments there so far. The first one was the day after we came home from the hospital. She had a little bit of jaundice then so they took some blood and when the result came in they asked us to come back for another check the next day even though we had an appointment two days later. 

At her first appointment she had already gained above her birth weight which is great. Everything else looked good except the jaundice. For the second appt, Jim went by himself since it was only going to be a blood test but the doctor ended up doing a full checkup and then said that her jaundice looked fine, we don’t need to do anything and we could cancel the appt for the next day.
Today we had her two week checkup. She has gained more weight (she’s heavier than Thor now haha), her skin looks perfect and everything seems great. Since she’s only breastfed we have to start giving her vitamin D drops every day, other than that we are good until the next appointment in two weeks. 

The easiest way to bring Lily to the pediatrics is to carry her in the car seat

I’m so happy that I am able to breastfeed her. My mom and sister struggled and ended up giving formula instead, but I had amazing lactation coaches at the hospital that I can call at any time now as well if I have questions or concerns. To be able to feed her has been a dream of mine and I am so happy that I can. And let me tell you, this little lady can eat. I feel like I don’t do anything else haha. My boobs are clearly doing a great job cause she is gaining weight at a great speed. 

For the most part we have had it pretty easy, Lily is a dream, but I did have a rough day on Tuesday. Lily lets us sleep for 4-6 hours at night, then she eats and falls back to sleep for another two hours, which is awesome, we are so grateful for that! But, I was a bit extra tired on Monday night when trying to put her to sleep and continued to be tired throughout Tuesday and the day ended up being a little bit of a struggle. But, I really can’t complain. One day of a tired mommy out of baby’s 12 days on earth, I think that’s pretty amazing. 

It’s quite warm here in Stamford these days which I of course love! We have been out for a walk with Lily in the stroller every day, I have even been out on my own with her which has been great. Fresh air, moving my body, a calm and sleepy baby and warm weather,.. can’t wish for anything better. I always wanted a spring child and I got one, and she really did bring the spring when she arrived ♥

May 15th, one week postpartum

My dear husband

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May 19, 2021

Proud father to our beautiful daughter

Jim,
There are not enough words to describe how amazing he’s been through our pregnancy, the birth of our child and every minute since we came home from the hospital. I didn’t think it was possible to love him more than I already did after our ten years together but those butterflies doesn’t go away, they multiply every day.
Without his loving support I would not have been able to have the perfect birth that I’d wished for. He made me feel stronger than I thought I was, his encouraging words during labor was just what I needed.
I love to see him with our daughter. It’s been amazing to see what a great dad he’s been since the moment she arrived.
And I am so fortunate to have a husband who is working from home, that’s the only good thing about this pandemic I guess. Him working from home allows me to shower, eat, nap, go to the bathroom, clean up our home if I feel like it, play with our dog and take baby for walks every day.
I am beyond grateful to have a husband like Jim ♥ ♥ ♥

Jim gave me a few surprise gifts during our labor day,
one was a chipmunk that stayed with us for good luck (another gift was a singing baby shark hahah)

I’m told that this is how Jim was sleeping as a baby as well. Like father like daughter ♥