Kortet ovan sitter uppe pa vaggen hemma hos mina foraldrar. Det var ett foto som Hallands Nyheter hade i en artikel om en workshop som vi i dansprogrammet pa gymnasieskolorna i Halland hade i Varberg.
Min koreograf, JoAnna, pratar om det fotot ibland pa rehearsals (de var ju och halsade pa forra sommaren), vet inte riktigt varfor men hon namner det i olika diskussioner. Det ar ett foto och en tid som jag har glomt bort. Det var sa lange sedan.
Sa ung och sa manga mal som jag ville uppna. Idag sitter jag fortfarande sadar pa golvet, men jag har uppnatt alla mal jag hade. Helt otroligt konstigt nar man tanker efter. Det var mal och delmal som kandes sa stora och sa langt borta, men nu 10 ar senare har jag uppnat allt och lite till. Jag ar stolt over mig sjalv.
Det ar dags att skapa nya mal. Det har varit svart att komma pa vad de malen ar. Sedan jag kom tillbaka till Sverige efter min tid i Portugal har jag varit lite vilsen (ja, i fyra ars tid). Men under den tiden har jag anda uppnatt en massa saker.
Mycket idag handlar om att man maste gora saker hela tiden och man maste gora saker som betyder nagot…som betyder nagot for alla andra. Jag tycker att man borde stanna upp ibland och tanka pa vad man sjalv vill och tanka efter pa det man redan har astadkommit. Vad har du i ditt bagage? Vilka erfareheter har du? Vilka kunskaper sitter du inne med?
Vi stressar och vill ha en karriar nar vi ar 20-25 ar. Ta det lugnt! Hellre att man gor nagot som man sjalv vill och mar bra av, an att gora en massa saker som later bra eller ser bra ut pa pappret.
Den har tiden som jag funderar pa mina nasta mal i livet tar inte jag som nagot negativt. Jag ser det som en tid da jag kan testa mig fram. Jag bor nu aven i ett annat land som jag forsoker anpassa mig efter, och det ar ett ganska stort projekt i sig:)
Nu ar tiden da man soker till skolor. Vilken gymnasieinriktning ska man valja? Vilken hogskola ska man valja? Jag har manga yngre lasare och till er sager jag bara: lyssna inte pa alla andra, kann efter sjalv. Och! Man kan alltid valja om senare i livet, det ar aldrig forsent att andra sig 🙂
The photo above is hanging on the wall in my parents house. It was a photo for Hallands Nyheter’s (a newspaper in Sweden) article about a workshop that we in the dance program in High Schools around in the region Halland, had in the city Varberg.
My choreographer, JoAnna, talks about that photo sometimes in rehearsals (they all visit last summer), don’t really know why but she mentions it in various discussions. It’s a photo and a time that I have forgotten about. It was so long ago.
So young and so many goals that I wanted to achieve. Today I’m still sitting on the floor like that, but I have accomplished all the goals I had. Unbelievably strange when you think about it. There were goals and smaller goals that felt so big and so far away, but now 10 years later, I’ve achieved everything and some more. I’m proud of myself.
It’s time to create new goals. It’s been hard to figure out what those are. Since I came back to Sweden after my time in Portugal I’ve been a little lost (yes, for four years). But during that time I have done so many things.
A lot today is about that you must do things all the time and you must do things that means something…that means something for everyone else. I think you should just stop sometimes and think about what you want yourself and think about what you already have accomplished. What do you have in your backpack? What experiences do you have? What skills are you sitting on?
We stress and want a career when we are 20-25 years old. Take it easy! Rather that you do something that you want and feel good about than do a lot of things that sounds good or looks good on paper.
This time I’ve had to think of my next goals in life, I do not see them as something negative. I see it as a time when I can try new things. I now also live in a different country that I’m trying to adapt myself to, and it’s a pretty big project in itself:)
Now is the time when you apply for schools. What High School specialization to choose (in Sweden)? What college to choose? I have many young readers and to you I’m just saying: do not listen to everybody else, go after what you want to do. And! One can always choose differently later in life, it’s never too late to change 🙂
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