March 16, 2021
When one is getting closer to due date it is pretty common to feel a bit overwhelmed. I have had moments the past week when thinking of all the stuff I need to do and get done before baby comes is making me so overwhelmed that I end up doing nothing at all. Last week I had a whole morning where I found myself sitting on the couch upstairs with my cup of decaf resting on the bump, just staring into the wall focusing on my breathing. That was all I could do that morning. And that is ok.Â
My todo list feels endless. But I can’t complain. Other mothers-to-be has the same long lists plus a job to go to, I am just a housewife who’s biggest challenge at the moment is to finish her yoga teacher training before baby comes (my goal was to finish before Thanksgiving đŸ™ˆbut life got in the way). But I can’t diminish myself and my feelings, it’s all real and I’m vulnerable just like everyone else.
And to be pregnant during a pandemic isn’t exactly easy. I’m an introvert and a classic Cancer who loves to hide inside her hard shell, her safe space. I normally love to cocoon myself at home with my hubby and puppy away from other people. But for the past week I have started to feel a little lonely. I have someone kicking me non-stop all day long so I know that I am not alone, I also have the privilege of having my husband working from home during this pregnancy which I am very grateful for. But one can still feel lonely at times.
I understand that this is just a phase and it’ll pass. I know that I need to just cross off one thing at a time on my todo list and soon I’ll be done. But I also have to allow myself to feel and take time for myself when I need it.Â