My phone is completely full. My laptop is full. My hard drives are full. Why? Well, I’m afraid to loose things, so I update everywhere but then don’t delete anywhere else. I have lost important stuff so many times that I now have turned into a digital hoarder. It’s driving me nuts of course. I don’t need all the things I save but it has become a bad habit. All of our vacation pictures are taking up all my space on every device. I want to print them out and put in an album, but then my fear of fire kicks in.
The other day, I was putting stuff from my phone on my laptop, things that wasn’t important enough to save on multiple places and my phone was so full I couldn’t save a single thing more. All of a sudden, everything I had put on my laptop got deleted. No idea how and it wasn’t in the recycle bin. There was no way for me to get it back, I tried everything and googled all sort of stuff to help me. I had deleted everything from my phone already too, so my things was just gone. Gone!
The things that got lost wasn’t important at all (I think), but it still sucked and my fear of loosing other things like honeymoon photos or whatever was bigger than normal. I screamed right out and yelled at my phone and the laptop. I was furious!
When I was right in the middle of trying everything possible, I just suddenly stopped. I made a decision to let go. My docs and pics were not going to come back. Maybe there was a way, but I didn’t wanna know anymore. I unplugged my phone and shut down the computer.
Why spend time on unnecessary shit? IF it in fact had been my honeymoon photos or greencard documents or anything more real to care about, then letting go would be harder, but all of those things I have been smart enough to save on my husbands pc. I’ve lost resumes, personal recommendations and documents written in college more than once before and I have let go of that. Some shit that I don’t even know what it was got lost. Why put energy on that?
I’m tired of full devices, so I will sort everything out on every single place and I will put really important documents on dvds and put in a fireproof safe that we are going to buy. And if I somehow loose vacation pictures, well, then I have some saved on my blog (this is why an online diary is fantastic hehe). In the end, none of this matters. Material things doesn’t matter, pictures on a hard drive doesn’t matter and if it gets lost, then ok. We have to be able to let go.