June 10, 2021
One year ago, we found a house that we liked. After emails, phone calls and zoom walkthroughs, we decided to fly down to Florida to see it in person. We loved it but we knew it wouldn’t be easy to buy it, but it seemed like we could maybe buy it in the end of last summer. So, we decided to get pregnant so that we could stay with my awesome doctors and the awesome hospital here, spend a couple of months in the house during winter and then fully move there this summer.
Well, the process of buying this house has been complicated and we gave up a few times. With a growing bump and time running out, we have been looking and looking for other houses, home builders and lots everywhere in the country. Whenever we find something decent that we could consider, it is sold within days or even hours and no builders have time or even respond. Everyone’s buying homes right now, it’s crazy.
And then in March we got our hopes up for the house again. The auction was scheduled for today and we were all set and excited.
But.
Something came up on Wednesday and it now seem too risky. And then yesterday we were told that the auction has been rescheduled. What a joke. One thing after another. So, we are not going to buy it.
This basically means that we are homeless in July unless we buy a home we don’t want or end up renting again. At some point this month, Jim probably has to leave us and try to find somewhere for us to live.
When we talked about that it was time for us to have a baby back in 2018, I said that I don’t want to add a baby to our lives unless we have a home with a nursery somewhere where baby can hang out on a beach from day one and to swim in a pool looking at palm trees. I know that’s big wishes but that’s what I’ve always wanted and I’ve been very clear about that. Well, Lily arrived during a pandemic (which hasn’t been super fun to deal with for anyone), we don’t plan on buying a beach pass here in Stamford (because A; the beaches here suck and B; we are leaving soon) and we can’t find a home.
I know I wished for big things and I never expected it to be my husband to grant me those wishes, we are both in this marriage. But I could easily have waited to have a baby until things were looking better in the world and when we would know where to live. Yes, of course I love our little girl and wouldn’t change a thing, but to live in boxes for four months waiting to buy a really great house and then just… womp womp womp. We both went from being super excited to extremely stressed out in one day.
It was an emotional day yesterday. But today we have to try to be positive, optimistic and trust that everything will work out. Sure it sucks to have to spend a bunch of money on a house we don’t really want or rent a whatever place for who knows how long but so be it, we have no time to really think about this. We are moving on.
Wish us good luck!
Here’s two cute pictures to light up the mood:)
