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April 2, 2020

Our world will not look the same after all this, whenever “after all this” is. We will not look at the each other the same way, we will not interact with businesses like restaurants and stores the same, we will not spend our money the same, we will be more careful, we will have extra worries and fears and we will not be able to explore the world the same way that we have before. This world shutdown is going to affect us way more than we know. I am scared, I am sad and I am worried.

But it is too big to think of for any of us. I’m trying to keep my thoughts positive and hopeful. Our minds doesn’t need extra negativity and worries at this time, it’s there either way so there’s no need to feed it. 

What I have been reading and hearing the past few days makes me feel all sort of things. What I’m most scared of is of course that anyone that we care about will get the virus and god forbid not make it (please, I beg you, stay at home!). But I’m also afraid that I won’t be able to see everyone again. Everyone is talking about “when this is over” and “when the world is back to normal”, but the thing is, there wont be a normal, not the normal we know at least, and we don’t know when or if this is going to be over. Regarding the virus, yes, they will probably find a vaccine and the pandemic will be over, but that’s not the worst part. People in this world is suffering more than ever now. Lots of people have lost their jobs and probably wont get them back “after this”. Businesses and people will go bankrupt. Countries can go bankrupt. It worries me. 
Since we don’t know what is going to happen, there is no way to know if I will ever be able to travel to my country again, if I will ever be able to see my family again. There is an entire ocean between us and I can’t just go for a swim. 

This is too much and too hard to deal with right now and since I don’t know how the future will look like, there is no need for me to feed my worries. Instead I choose to see the good things in all this, like we can talk to my family and my husbands family over the phone or facetime, my husband and I get to spend more time with each other, we can spread love even if it’s not in person and we can still laugh with people we care about. I am actively choosing to stay hopeful through this. I want there to be happy times “after all this”, I want to see my family, I want to be able to explore other parts of this world, I want to be able to eat at a restaurant again, I want to spend time with friends, I want to take dance classes in studios and I want to see smiles on peoples faces.

I’m not ignoring the horrors in my mind, but I’m trying to keep my thoughts positive and hopeful. 

/ I’m sorry for such sad post today, but I think it is important to talk about the good the bad and the ugly…and these days it’s all of those things. I hope you are staying at home, that you are healthy and I wish you a wonderful day ♥ /