December 23, 2019
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Hi! Yes, I am alive:) Sometimes the blog has to suffer a little. This month has been a bit tough. I hate to dwell on things, but it just became so real that I’m not done with the PMP story yet and it’s been over a year now since it started (we didn’t know about it until later, but the story began already in November of last year). I was so excited about the little life I was carrying and we were hoping that last Christmas was going to be our last just the two of us, but it didn’t work out. And now for some reason I got really emotional about it and it’s hard to update this site then.
Anyway. Hubby brought puppy to work today so I’m having a day to myself. A perfect time for me to sit down and think about how I’d like 2020 to look like. My pmp story will unfortunately follow me into the next year but at least my numbers has continued to be down so I’m not as worried anymore.
However, we have put in a maintenance request (possible mold growing in the wall and under carpet by the terrace door) so I don’t feel as relaxed and tuned out as I’d like to. I asked Jim to bring Thor to work so that I really didn’t have to focus on anything else, but knowing that the guy might show up any second makes it kinda hard to sit down and meditate or to stay focused on anything which was the purpose of this day. It’s hard for me to concentrate on a normal day so I needed a full day to just myself. Oh well.. I got do some yoga in the morning and have got some stuff done on my computer now so I guess it’s not a total waste:)
Ok, this post wasn’t very positive I guess hahah, but I’m gonna go sit down and meditate now to bring negative thoughts out of my system (I bet you $5 that the guy will show up a minute into it hahah).
Have a wonderful day!