May 7, 2019
Kauai, January 2018
Good Evening everyone! Tomorrow is a very exciting day. Jim and I are flying to Paris!! Ok, we don’t land until Thursday so I guess that’s the exciting day:)
I have since my early 20s been thinking that one day I want to do a romantic trip to Paris with the man I love before we decide to have a family (obviously didn’t know it was going to be with Jim then). Paris was never on the top on my list of places I wanted to visit, but the thought of a romantic weekend was, haha, ehm..ya, whatever.
After J and I had our baby talk almost exactly one year ago, I mentioned my thought about Paris before a kid. We actually started to look into it then, but we didn’t find a good time for it that summer or fall because we had other trips planned, people to stay with us and things booked and planned. And then we got pregnant. I thought “oh well, whatever, we can go in the future and have a baby sitter or something”.
Almost directly after losing the baby, we booked our tickets to Paris. We didn’t know about the cause of this pregnancy loss then and what it would mean for me these past three months. But the closer we got to this week and the lower hormone level I got the more I thought that this would be our celebration that we can move on, start over, kinda. But I’m not done yet unfortunately. Apparently my level went up on my last test and my doctor asked if I wanted to do the treatment on Monday this week or wait and do another blood test next Monday when we are back and do treatment then if level doesn’t change. Her suggestion was to wait since she knows that we are going on this trip and she want us to enjoy it (so sweet). It would suck to have side effects to deal with on vacation.
So this trip is not quite a “celebration that we can move on”, but we can get some quality time together and be romantic anyway. I have cold sores in my face and can’t kiss him at the moment (my hormones went up and the lady-week is coming up so that probably triggered cold sores to break out) so that’s not very fun, but whatever, we can hold hands and stare into each others eyes 🙂
Aahh, I’m so excited! Of course we want to do all the tourist stuff, but I also kinda just want to relax for once. We’ll see what we have time for. Right now I’m just hoping for good weather. Looks like it’s going to rain a lot. But if it does, we’ll just hang out at the Louvre.
Woohoo! Paris!