March 31, 2019
Hellu! How are you this evening? I feel super pepp about…everything. Really. I have three books (all pink actually haha) that I write down things for each month and for each season. One regular calendar cause I still use one of those and always will. One is a smaller book where I have drawn the month and I write things to accomplish or important things that needs to be done or just fun things that I would like to try for that month (my new goals for the year that I wrote about HERE is written down there too). In a larger one I write the exact same thing as the smaller one but in a more clear list form. Confusing? Haha, well, not to me and it can motivate me. The past few months I have crossed off very little things so I end up moving it over to the next month and the next… But now, I really feel like this last week of March kicked my butt a bit and I feel so incredibly motivated to mark all things on my list off. My number one thing for April, which unfortunately I have no control over, is to get my HCG level down to 0. Hopefully don’t have many weeks left but who knows.
After spending time at the gym a lot more this past week, and feeling really blah in my body and really sad about that it feels like I’m stuck in deep mud and I can’t crawl up, I could see and feel some results today. I am nowhere near what I used to be or what I like to be, but I know that hard work will pay off in the end. My goal is to build my muscles strong again, get them to be as flexible as they used to be and to go back into dance classes without killing my knees. It’s not an easy road back but I know it’s possible.
April and spring, I am ready for you!
Yesterday I danced around by myself in the studio nearby