February 19, 2019
We had our post op appointment this morning. They took some blood and I will know probably by tomorrow if my hormone levels are back to normal yet. I have gained weight (I hope that their scale lies but it seems like I have gained a lot). The Dr took a quick check down under and said it looked fine plus I’ve been feeling ok.
We learned some new stuff today about the pregnancy and the baby. We haven’t received all the results yet so I feel like I should wait to write about it. But there was definitely some shit going on and there was no chance for our baby to survive. Now I’m even more surprised that it lived for as long as it did.
I do wish that it had died earlier. Standing on the second trimester line with our hopes up and then being left with nothing kinda sucks. If it had died in week 6 or 8 or something, then I wouldn’t question it. But, then we wouldn’t have known about the cause probably. I’m glad to have a reason for why it didn’t work out. There are many couples who doesn’t know the reason for why they miscarried, there might not even be a reason. We had reasons and I think that maybe makes it easier for us to deal with this. But I don’t know, I have never miscarried before.