Last day of 2017.
Until a few years ago, I never thought about New Years as being a new start of things. I had ongoing dreams and goals I was working towards and I didn’t need a new year to tell me to push harder or to change anything.
Half way through 2014, I decided to quit my job in the company and take a break. I thought it would last for a couple of months, but it’s been over 3 years now. A struggle for sure and instead of “finding myself” (omg, I hate that expression), I just got more confused.
In the end of last year I had a strong will to let our move to Stamford be a kick-start for myself. I let my creative mind go free and I pictured things about our life in a new city. But, I really didn’t know anything about this place and things turned out to be very different and instead of pushing through and change the picture I had in mind, my motivation ran out.
I wrote in the beginning of the year that I had a strong feeling that 2017 would be an awesome year, that I had the same strong feeling like I did going into 2013, but I think that was just more of a wish than a true feeling. I don’t have any specific feeling about 2018. But I do believe that the new year will bring some awesomeness…. because I’m gonna make it that way. 2017 was just whatever, and I want things to be more exciting than that.
So the whole thing of New Years being a new start of things, that’s something I think more about now than before. Cause I think I need that motivation.
How was your 2017? Do you have any wishes or New Years resolutions for 2018?